After blogging, im gg to do the inventory of my company.

E fetch me from work to school ytd, fetch me from school again, head to had our very late dinner. Down to kallang slack, reach home 1plus am and sleep.

Chirstmas is around the corner.

I want a gucci bag for my birthday. =(

I miss zayne. Im gg back this week to pick up my son. Miss him!

Loves, Bk&E

I woke up so early today. Was worried last night that i cant get to sleep! Lucky i slept all night long. Haha. Half an hour later, im gg to prepare to my first day of work. Hope everyday will be a good day for me. =)

I love my friends.
People like
Minjuan: Thou she everytime moodswing. Haha, but its alright la. She is one mad girl.
Janelle: Every mon & wed hear my nonsense, complaints, gossips, so much, so much. Everything that i need to know, she will know. haha.
Yihui: I miss her, miss her, miss her.
Eelin: Thanks to her & pui, thats why i found my love =)
Gbelle: My 7years bestie. <3
Fungyong: Small lil cute boy. ARGHH, grown up already lah! Haha.
Kenneth: Always stand by me, hear my problems. Thanks bro.

ALright, gonna rest awhile. And seriously, my phone got lots of photos to upload. LAZY.

My love, E.

Im home early today, as i've got work tomorrow =)

Tomorrow got class after work, and my results is not out yet.

Anw, my mood is getting so good everyday. Im so in love <3

Hey people, i feel nothing for zack anymore. So, i guess everything should stop now. I dontwant so much things that is bothering me. We are still friends. We both have the same goal now. To earn money for our son.

To him,

Yesterday was the 12th. Our 3years & 11months anniversary. Im glad you told me something like that last night, and i knew you have been reading my blog all along. I will take care of myself well. Like what i said last night. Take care of our son well, as i dont have so much time to be with him like you do. Stay happy with her, and i know you will. You are always my dearest. Take care. 12.02.06

The time now is 4.57. Nearly 5am. Later i've got interview. =) Better get to sleep real soon.

E told me that the best way to turn back my sleeping time is not to sleep all day till the next night. Maybe is an good idea?

I went to malaysia just now with E. Before that, he fetch me over to in law place to take something, too bad, zayne is sleeping. Give him a kiss and i left. =( After malaysia, headed back to spore. Met the rest at geylang serai, slacked awhile, he sent me home. Tomorrow's its his ORD day, nono. Should be today. On the 11th.=) Felt happy for him too.

Supposely, on the every 12th of the month. Its our anniversary. This 12th its our 3years & 11months tgt =(

But not to worry!, i've got my E with me. =))

Thou many people told me to find a bf. Yes, i like him. But i told him & myself. Give me some more time. I need to clear my mind. Need to know exactly if i really fall for him. I dont want make him feel that because im heartbroken and need love. Thats why, i like him. I want to make sure, the feeling i had for him is real. Im just being fair to him.

As for my son, he is staying at my in laws place. Zayne's custody i will put as joint. Seriously, i got no ability to take care of him. My family cant help either. If he stay with me, im afraid of so much things. I cannot 24hr be with him. I need to work and study. Im afraid he will go astray when he grow up, and so much things to worry. Sat & Sun i will bring him over to my place.

Im gg to work extra hard. I cant wait to go to work.

Alright, gonna get some sleep.

Goodnight.

This few days im so moody that my blog is to be a sad story.

from last tues till now, i've been going out everyday. Only till 7am, i will sleep. Now my timing for sleep is so bad that i only sleep in the day. Woke up and went out. My mom always nag at me, and say dont let other people look down on me. Find a job and stay home. But, if ever things happen to you like this. Can you really stay at home? Before i sleep, i always think of this. When im alone, i always think of this. Staying home only worsen the situation. I wanna stop thinking all this shit in my mind.

Wed night & thurs night went out to rounding.
Fri went to fish spa. Kallang mac slack, slept over at minjuan place.
Sat Rounding again, plus kenneth and mgts. Had supper at tamp 201. went home.
Sun rounding.
Mon Prawning session at Geylang
Tues Meet him.
Wed Meet him, and head over to lavender eat.
Thurs Reach home at 6plus morning, ate my medicine and sleep. Now im awoke, heading out soon. Might be gg malaysia later. Shall see how. Or might be joining the rest to prawning again.

How is my birthday celebration going to be? I suddenly dont feel like having any celebration. Its only 19years. But i feel like leaving singapore to celebrate my bday. I dont wanna stay here. =(

But anw, i think i fall for him. SHIT. My goal, is to have a bf only next year. BK JIAYOU!

Im so tired now. My coughing is not getting any better. I seriously hate to be sick.

Tmr i got 3 interviews going. Hope i can get a job asap.

I miss zayne so much. =( 4days din get to see him =( I must get used to it soon. After i started work, i can only see him on weekends too. Why? Why i don have the ability to take care of him? Submit to fate. My mom told me before.

Im gg out very soon.

Am i in love? Or issit because i need someone to care for me? So lack of love. So lonely. And i thought this is love? Hopefully not.

Replies to tag.

Candy: Hey, din know you will come by my blog. No worries. Im okay. =)
Shirlene: Yeah, shocked right? Thats why, Dont ever judge a book by its cover.
Kaiq: No link leh. And yes, its gonna be okay.
Apple: Ya, im finding. Why? Got intro ar?
Kelly: Yes, he is screwed off my mind.
Jasmine: Thanks Thanks. =)
Fruit: I know. He is indeed a bastard.
Ath: Ya lor, i all along tot he is a good hubby & good father. Expect the unexpected.
Baba: I wont be sad anymore.
Shona: Thanks babe. And great to see you that day.
Yvette: YAY!. Im gonna see you v soon
A: Yes, He is with me. Thats why im still standing strong down.
Jazz: Thanks for chatting with me that day. =) Apprieciate ur encouragement.
Marg: Yeah. Will catch up with you very soon.

Job is so difficult to get nowaday. But, dont worry. I will keep on searching for the right job for myself.

I guess this incident is a birthday present for me. What a present.

This week i played enough. =)

Its time to get down on real business. To find a job and to work hard, study hard.

Im not sure if i really can forget everything. Im not sure if one day this thing will pop inside my mind and make me lose confidence. But as for now, i feel so much energetic and stronger than before.

But please god, dont make me fall in love so fast, everything is too fast. Just let me have fun will do. Just let me forget everything. But, dont make me fall in love.

Sorry people that my blog is getting so boring lately. No photos updated. But, very soon alright? I've got a few photos in my phone.

Later im meeting my long-lost friend Shona. HAHA. Been years since i last saw her.

Goodbye.

Did i mention before that my granddad cannot walk anymore? He's in pain everynight, and he cant get to sleep. He have to lie down everyday & night.

He told my mom last night. Tell her dont divorce.

I heard this, i cried.

My mom say, you think ah gong like this, like gong gong. He know what exactly happen, he still worried for you all.

Ohman, i cannot control. I cried today.

But here to say, i sincerely thanks so much people. Thou whether to be strong or not, its all by myself. But they really did a part. People like TAN MIN JUAN who is 24hr free, she meet me everyday to go out and enjoy, people like GRAZEBELLE, thou she is not very free, she send me msg everyday to remind me to be strong, and saying positive things to me. People like FOO EELIN who is trying to find guys for me & who is so determine to stand up for me. HAHA. People like GOH HUIQUAN who is trying her best to help me as much as she can.

And not forgetting
fungyong
eliora
kenneth
Jazz
Tiff
Jenny
Shona
Winston&Joycelyn
Celeste
Yvette
Jasmine
Janelle

and all the people whom i duno who they are. A big thanks to you guys. =)

NBCCB.

This mother fucker ZACK LIM, which i married to ( Im totally blind) bloody cb.
Anybody see him, please spit on him.
Cuz he is fucking disgusting.
He actually have one more gf previously before this SLUT.

COME ON LA. Bloody cb. You only got face & mouth. No brains & no money.

Same thing, he din mention to his ex-gf he is married. When she get to know, she back off. She cannot be blame. He still got the cheek to tell her he want to snatch baby. Fucking hell. You dare you try me.

KNNCCB. !@#$%^&*()_+

WHY the hell such guy exist in this world. God, please take him away.

Remember, saw him. Spit at him.